Best Christmas ever

This may sound strange, but I was at a funeral today, and all I could think of was that Louise was going to have the best Christmas she's ever dreamed of.

Louise Hildebrand died on Monday night. We had a very long power outage and I guess that it was too much for her 82 year old heart. To tell you the truth, I only know her age because of the eulogy. If you'd have known her, you never would have guessed that she was any more than, maybe, her mid 60s. She was as young at heart, and almost as active, now as she was Oh, (was that 20 years ago?) when I first met her. My guess is that she's having the best time ever! I can almost hear her laugh.

Now, on a totally different topic...

Over the past month since I posted last, I have been having a really hard time emotionally. Now, don't get me wrong, there was no 'depths of despair' kind of thing, but I was never totally ever happy, relaxed or at peace. This is what I affectionately call treading water, just below sea level. I'm not drowning, I'm just not on top of things either. If I relax, or if I don't pay attention to what's going on, I could very easily drown.

Yet it is on top of all of this that I've added to my teaching hours to 'maximize' my hours. This basically means that I am now officially full time.

I'm so not ready for Christmas that it's not funny.

I can't keep my mind on much of anything these days. It doesn't bode well for my new class...

As my hubby has pointed out to one of our friends, teaching is the one place where I'm not actually stressed. I'm less stressed in front of a class than I am at home, at a party, or even doing hair. I thrive on giving people the skills that they need to make a good life for themselves and their families here in Canada.

I guess that maybe I need to keep on focusing on the good stuff and let the bad stuff just fade away. OK- so I'm an eternal optemist- or I'm delusional... You pick.